time-stealer.

I have a problem. It seems silly, but it's mentally exhausting and it makes me anxious after so long. You see, the thing is, when I sit in front of a computer all day at a job that allows internet access whenever, I am constantly refreshing my email page to see if I have any new messages. I am logged in, literally, all day. I never sign out. Refresh. Refresh. Refresh. You would think a person could check their email (and any other networking sites : like facebook) 3 times a day and be satisfied. Another addiction, I think. An obsession perhaps. Why is it necessary to check so often? Really, it's not like I'm expecting any sort of life-altering email messages that must be read immediately. Makes me wonder what this world would be like if the internet and email never came to be. I mean, WHAT WOULD WE DO? I imagine the majority of us depend heavily on our email and the internet in general (after all, you can pay almost every bill online these days). I remember the first day I went on the internet — literally. First of all, I must have been about 14 maybe? 8th grade? Anyways, I was in my mom's classroom (she is a teacher), on her computer.. when I connected to the world wide web for the first time. I sat there looking at the screen (I don't recall what website I was on), and remember thinking "What now?". Someone told me you can look at anything. ANYTHING? I still sat there unable to think of what I could possibly look at. What? What on earth would I want to search for on this thing? Soon enough my girlfriends and I discovered the image search feature... We would sit there during basketball games and search for photos of the dreamy Leonardo DiCaprio... ahhhh, such a hunk. We'd print sheets and sheets of pictures of him. We'd cut them out and hang them in our lockers to stare at in between class just so we could daydream about him while we were actually in class. Then my friend helped me set up my first email account. I had no clue what the hell I was doing. Who knew 10 years later I would have an addiction to the damn thing. Good thing I have an iPod touch so that I can even check my email when I'm out at a place that has free Wi-Fi. What is this world coming to? What is next? Ohh, brother...